Letting Go: A Kristi Kreme Post

It’s a wonderful day today. I have all my chicks at home. My oldest son is home from college for a week of spring break. He attends a college about nine hours from our home, and so we don’t see him as often as we would like.

All three of my boys have been homeschooled their entire education. They are currently eighth grade, tenth grade and second year college. It has been the biggest blessing for me and my husband. I can’t imagine education any other way. 

We are a very close family, with strong relationships. My boys and my husband are my best friends. I can’t imagine life without them. They are my joy and my life.

I would rather hang out with my ‘guys’ than with anyone else on this earth.

Needless to say, allowing my oldest son to go so far away to college was the hardest thing I have ever done as a mother. I thought my heart would just die.

At first I missed him so much that I would go into his room and just sit. Sometimes I would lie on his bed and cry. Sometimes I had to keep the door to his room closed so I couldn’t see into it.

We talked on the phone a lot. He even initiated some of the calls. I missed him SO much. My heart would ache for all my boys to be together in the same house, playing their guitars, wrestling, laughing and being loud.

Over time God has helped me to not hurt so much. I still miss my son desperately when he is at college, but I have more peace and contentment with him being gone. I know in my heart that God is using this time away to train him and mold him into the man he needs to be.

Letting go of our children when they are older is difficult and painful, but it is right and good. It stretches our faith and shows us that God is in control, as always, and He loves them even more than we do.We need to always remember that our home is the foundational training ground for our children’s future endeavors. This time at home is short but oh so sweet.

Kristi